The day I feared most came.

To be honest, I didn't freak out for the results like how I thought I would while doing my spm. In fact I was more nervous when I took my UPSR and PMR results. Maybe because I enrolled into college and basically have nothing to worry about? Actually, not exactly. I just don't wanna think about it and set any expectations. I actually didn't have a specific goal or ideal results in mind like how I used to have when I was in form 5. Though during the period I would occasionally yelped in fear whenever someone says "SPM results".

The day before it, mummy brought me to the saloon in the morning. She said she didn't like my hair colour and kinda forced me to dye another colour. TT Another funny part is, I don't get to choose the colour. My hair stylist said he wanted to try ash green on me. And my mom gave the green light there and there. I had no opinions on it so I just let them do whatever they want to my hair. Wasted 4 hours of my day as a result.

We went to Abby's renovated house at night to play cards and have a little chit chat. I initially thought that it was gonna be a sleepless night for me. But I was tired and I decided not to give a damn about it that night and sleep. I slept soundly hahaha.

3rd of March

Woke up to the screeching sound of my alarm. It was the 3rd alarm. I actually woke up late. We decided to go to school at 10 and it was already 9.30++ when I woke up. I got changed and went to school immediately since I have no appetite to eat.

The dumbest thing I find is that we weren't allowed to enter the school upon reaching. Yes, even parents. They expected us to just stand outside and wait. I knew the guards were not the ones to blame but the one, THAT one person's doing. Damn her, she should've retired like 15 years ago.

Anyways, we stood outside the school, saying hi to one another. When I heard Yong Qi and Wei Xin got straight As, I was shocked and couldn't help but being amazed. All I could say was "Waaaa", one after another. They checked their results via online and sms. After that, Yummy told Vanilla she got straight As too. Vanilla checked too after that. My mom, anxious, asked Vanilla to send the sms for me too as she was eager to know. The sms didn't get through. They checked via online after that. I was back-facing them, not wanting to know my results and shutting my mind off.

My mummy called me to go near her after that. She said she'll tell me, her eyes teary. I thought that was the end for me. She hugged me and said I got straight As too. I was screaming and hoping with joy. I... couldn't believe it. I mean, what happened to my BM that Pn Rokhiza thought it was doomed? My other subjects? MY CHINESE?

I sent the sms myself after that, to confirm the results and also to know the reliability of it.