I dunno what to name this post, hence the date. It's Malaysia's Independence Day today, coming to an end in another 30 minutes, oh well.

It's a Saturday and I'm supposed to go to Physics and Chemistry tuition at Locke's. But I ended up going to school to help out at Koperasi. Only a few went. My high school life will never be the same without me being a koperator, there are times that I felt I'm not cut out for the position, but now, I'll go on, no one's gonna stop me.

Why do I say that?

Being a koperator, you can learn much different things than a prefect or a librarian can do. Example, serving customers, tagging stocks, checking stocks, being a temporary cashier, do binding, selling food like instant porridge, doing accounting, know up to 500 different types of things in Koperasi and know the prices for the most of them and so on. I just can't list out everything, but I have gained so much of experiences from being a part-time sales girl at school. It's awesome, really, thanks for everything.

I came home at 2.30pm. And I went to my friend's house after that.

She hasn't been feeling well, mentally. Not attending school for 2 weeks, a few of us gathered and went to her house. Unfortunately, it was just like how we fear it would be like. She didn't come out of her room. And so we were just went back.

I'm guilty, I certainly just am. She wanted to tell me something, I told her to text or call whenever she wants, but.. I didn't make the move. I didn't.. Two days ago, I was attempting to get her through her house phone but she doesn't want to pick up. I am so regretful. No words could describe this, I'd kill myself if it means turning back time..

Her mom fetched all of us to my best friend's house BUT, her parents weren't in. (Great) So we walked all the way to Bintang Family karaoke in flaming heat. We sang for a while. I left early.

I will not give up. Everyone around her won't. We'll stay for her, we can't afford to fall. Finding all means that could help, for now, after skype-ing with Erick, Eugene, Vanilla, and Johnson, I'm too tired.. Sorry for the emotional post. I'll try to insert some photos on the following posts so it won't appear to be boring.